Very blessed

all that’s dead and gone

just close your eyes, you’ll be safe and sound.

i like for everyone to think that this space is dead. like forgotten in its own little dirt. anyway, chinese new year just passed. it was nice. spent pretty much the entire new year’s eve just lying in my own room. struggling hard not to walk out to get ice cream or roam around the mall. i had to fight the urge. it was just so difficult to sit down.

but waited till dinner when we 5 gathered together again. pleasant as it was. all the small bickering over how to go about distributing the red packets. daddy really had no choice but to close one eye. it was nice. i love that scene of us altogether. i will miss it. headed for the nursery with daddy before going to the temple where mom was busy. we all went. drove around geylang to find tauhuay with sisters and daddy. it was a night i like to keep in my head.

i remember having some really nice ramen the night before that. plus trying to find our way into pumproom for jive talking. failed miserably because guys gotta be 25.

cny was usual but this year i think i got a little more involved in everything. talking here and there, serving drinks and shaking hands of all those who came. i wish i played more mahjong though. i havent exactly had enough with one or two games here and there.
the next time we all gather would be grandma’s birthday and sister’s engagement i guess.

i contemplated about life.
it has treated me well. very well actually. i can’t complain. lately things have been going so smooth it seems as though i’m just waiting for it to all mess up. but that really shouldnt be the case. of course there are small things that bug me here and there. but i think i know where i belong. where i should be now that i’m 21. there are more things than to just trying to feel like i belong somewhere.
but i ought to be thankful. very thankful for all that i have in my life. the friends, the family, the things that i wake up to everyday. im blessed. very blessed.

i stayed away from my phone quite abit lately. those texts that come in. the emails and the whatsapp. the bbm and the social networking. im putting that aside and i think it helps. helps me focus on what i have in front of me in reality. anyway the phone is half broken. i should pretty much just wait for it to become obsolete.

anyway, i hope i am not neglecting too many things and i hope i am focusing on the right stuff. i’m 21 this year. things are gonna be different. i’m gonna grow up. alot more.

defying gravity

WICKED was fantastic. One of the best moments in my life. Red dot recently. Plus Titanic exhibition, fireworks on the 1st of jan. NSM Dreams & Reality exhibition. Can’t wait for Chinatown! 

 

Been busy lately. APUY and whatnot. 

and now i’m falling asleep in marcomm class. help. 

its just one of those nights.
idk why.
i’ll try to sleep it off.
it comes and goes.

i miss this empty void of mine.

i’m scared.
can somebody be here to hold me please.

Its too cold outside

Maybe it can be that simple. Maybe.

hurt

I feel sad. Maybe because I could have been better.

maybe ive said

If it remained unclear
Between the two of us
Which one would be the one
To break the others heart

Hold on,
This will floor me differently
Than any drug that’s washed me into sleep
It’s true
The only fault I’ll take from you
Is how to run from what you wish to keep

let tears fall like rain

Hiding under my blanket listening to my ipod. Such moments just leaves me in my own world.
Something I could really dwell in for quite a while.

Camp’s Finally over. Heavy heart.
Time to gather my thoughts from the past 4days.
I probably shoot myself in the head if I could.

This camp, changed many things.
But the bottomline is, where’s your heart?

If I could, I would.
Wanna go back oriole for a cup of coffee again.